No matter what I do, he will never realise how much I love him& how much he really did matters to me. I know I should not be feeling like this- I began to doubt, I began to realise. Have I know what is Love? Hais. I missed you everyday, I yearn and pinned so much for you. I find myself so silly to go through all these again. Then I realised I am the one who chose all these. I wouldn't blame you, you are not at fault. It's my heart which I cannot been able to get hold or control of which is tormenting me. The pain is so much to take, will you ever realise my pain? Everything you did were like sending little arrows piercing through my heart. Sighs, I don't wish to let you go. I know there ain't going to be any Happy Ending out of this because we have ended& Everything's Over :(

I woke up at Seven plus at night today. Kat was posing such a disturbance! I was sleeping and she so love to disturb! Agrhs!! I bathed& then came to meet Zann at Hougang then we got down to Outram Park. I accmpanied her& I'm going down to get my new Shirt(MaryJane) which is actually about $40 plus but there's this 15% off.& my Blossomz brown dress about $50 too! :D Yesterday I got this new Mondo Brown heels with Yining Bestie at Far East. Yeahs, I gonna bring my favourite black heels down for repair tomorrow! (: I'm going to Town& Bugis with Adeline& Zann tomorrow. I miss you so.

Some testimonials I got from His Friendster;

Elizabeth Posted 30/4/2006
that day finally saw yoo lers-yoo really look very kawaii~hahas xPp

Elizabeth Posted 30/4/2006
sarang heyo*im going bonkers over yoo-addicted to yoo lers (:ILOVEYOO*BETH LOVE SHIJIE*

Elizabeth Posted 30/4/2006
hellos. shijie ;hmmms, duibuqi*sorry never message nii wors. pangsehs nii bcos im online-bud every seconds i miss yoo nors. hahas xPp then wo cum flood nii testimonials. lols,hmmms, nii yao remember nii promised wo dders things okays. i trustt yoo*bu yao betrayy wo duii nii dder trustt lers bcos i love yoo*sorriie fer making yoo wait.i noe yoo gt the patience.meant to test yor patience dders, jk :xduibuqi-elizabeth-

Elizabeth Posted 30/4/2006
SHIJIE ;sarang heyo*

Elizabeth Posted 30/4/2006
HEYS,wart future laopo lars?!?humphs :x toOtpid guy xPpI MISS YOO* lars-

Elizabeth Posted 30/4/2006
HEYS (:i know yoo missed me.jk xPp-and I MISS YOO too!*

Elizabeth Posted 2/5/2006
go love yor SHE lars!I GO LOVE MY linjunjie! (:

Elizabeth Posted 2/5/2006
ddear ;exams in few days time lers.hais, im scared wors. i miss yoo*i wun overwork dders, im so lazy.yoo must pray and wish me luck. (:SARANG HEYO*

Elizabeth Posted 4/5/2006
ILOVEYOO*my ddear! (:

Elizabeth Posted 2/5/2006
elizabeth love shijie*

Elizabeth Posted 2/5/2006
ddear!yor promises bu yao break lehs.arbo nii jie die!humphs :x

Elizabeth
Posted 8/5/2006
BABY!
woaiini.
i wont leave yoo dders.
wo hao xiiang ni 07MAY06,2246
ELIZABETH LOVE SHIJIE.

Elizabeth Posted 2/5/2006
ddear!ILOVEYOO!*yoo are my baobei

Elizabeth Posted 16/5/2006
BABY*remember to take care yorself kays.bu yao smoke sho much lers.iloveyoo

Elizabeth Posted 16/5/2006
BAOBEI !ILOVEYOO SO MUCH!!yoo re nt allowed to leave me (x

Elizabeth Posted 25/5/2006
ddear ,, i want to hugg hugg yoo(:

Elizabeth Posted 24/5/2006
BABY ;everytime im lyk nt happiie bcos yoo say wanted to ton is bcos really scared yoo always nt feeling well .. yoo easy easy jiu will fall sick .. somemore need to work ,, hais .. nt gud fer yor health .. thats why always bit unhappiie yoo ton ,, duibuiqi* ILOVEYOO* must take care yorself kays .. im nt always by yor side to take care yoo dders .. bu yao always somoke so much lers lars .. kays .. wo hao xiangg nii lehs :'(

Elizabeth Posted 24/5/2006
baby!im here. remember yoo owe me the sunrise? hahas xPp

Elizabeth Posted 24/5/2006
ILOVEYOO*IMISSYOO*IWANTYOU*hahas xPp

Elizabeth Posted 24/5/2006
baby!im missing yoo so so much.re yoo missing me? hahas,ILOVEYOO*

Elizabeth Posted 24/5/2006
baby! next time i must hugg hugg yoo and sleep. hahas! (:

Elizabeth Posted 24/5/2006
baby ,, yoo re MINE (:

Elizabeth Posted 24/5/2006
baby .. if one day we have to separate lers ,, bu yao forget the times we had together okays. i really love yoo loads loads. hais ,, im sowie if i kept making yoo sad .. bud deep in my hart ,, i truly really love yoo loads and i cannot lose yoo .. i nidd yoo in my lyfe .. i love to hugg yoo ,, yoo hen hao bao bao .. hahas ,, being wib yoo makes me happiie ,, yoo give me a strong sense of security too (: dont leave me hao mahs ,, i will lose my sense of direction if yoo are nt there to guide me in my life .. ILOVEYOO* my ddear (:i remember the day ,, the date ,, the time we stead ,, finally we together lers ,, wo xu yao nii ; bu yao li kai wo .. woaini*ELIZABETH LOVE SHIJIE!

Elizabeth Posted 24/5/2006
mr liang; i want to bite yoo! (:

Elizabeth Posted 24/5/2006
ILOVEYOO*glad yoo lyk the gifts (:heys, must finish all the chocolates bcos i first time do xDd give me face ,, hahas ..must wear that tee ,, hahas xPpfinish the sweets * MUACKS (:

I miss you soo so much EX-Baby!

The Memories;
I find my eyes starting to water. Looking at my Friendster, the testimonials he wrote for me in the past, I really don't know what to do. I'm so confused. Should I let go of him? I know it's difficult but there ain't any chances of getting back anymore. He will be going in to army soon. Even if he's not, we won't get back together. I felt my heart aching, it's like a thousand sharp-pierced knives piercing through my heart. I felt the pain, I really love you alot. Hais. I thanked you for giving me those Beautiful Memories& thnaks for forgiving me for my so many faults. I only wish that you will be happy. Hais, I really going to burst out into tears already! BOY, I MISS YOU! I miss hugging you at night, I miss listening to your heartbeats. I missed your everything but Everything's Over! I missed your arms as my pillow..

I love you so.

I will bring with me our Memories wherever I go. Nothing gonna change my Love for you, I thank God for once lettig me to have a chance to be with you. I cherished& treasured everything with you. Although we can't never be together anymore, I still hope you live happily.

Yeahs, we broke up again& he said it's better that we remained good friends. He said this is the only way to solve our problem. He said friends will be better than us being a couple. I know I'm not a good girlfriend& I truly wished to be one. Sighs. And yet I can't, I'm a failure. I hate myself so.
But Merry Christmas Eve to Peeps :D Anyway, went with Kathy to straighten our hair first at Rivervale Plaza before I met Wanling and the rest at CineLeisure. Met up with Jingjing, Jiayi,Jaleena& Adeline& guys too. Zann finally came. There are sad happenings as usual& I miss him so :( I do hope other enjoy their Christmas. I took loads of pictures today with Kat& by myself! Got spray alot& was so sticky!! :D I really hope to be happy. But can I? :(
He chose to take away my happiness by hurting me& LEAVING ME. I got nothing more to say. He knows clearly how much I do love him. Everything I did, I did it all because of him. Yet, he hurt me for the umpteen times. Hais.

We broke up. 02:59 :(

I got my Nokia N73 Finally!

Everything needed for Baby to know:

I love Baby even if you ain't cute.
I love Baby even if you ain't loaded.
I love Baby even if you are dumb.
I love Baby even if you are bad.
I love Baby even if you ain't mine [:
In any case, I just love Baby so :D
Elizabeth Loves LiangShiJie for his everything <3
I love you, I love you& I love you so.

Yeahs! Finally went out with Qingren today, Ass (: Went out to meet her one plus in the afternoon at Mac's Compass Point. Munir was there with her. Haha, quarrelled with Kathy Goh Gek Zhi AGAIN! I'm so mad. Don't want to mention it lers, made me sheng qi! Went with Qingren to Bugis and then she accompanied me to ShawHouse' Lido for my cheque! [: Thanks Darling. Then I bought a new white shorts& Mango tee! Oh God! I love that Bebe tube skirt! It sost $400! :( I can never afford that! I want to buy more clothes! School's starting already, but I'm more looking forward to Christmas first! If nothing goes wrong,then I 'd be able to have a new phone tommorrow! Either a Nokia N-Series N73,maybe a Sony Ericsson Walkman phone!? Met Yining& Mansi too outside at Lido, got our X'mas gift. Thnaks Yining Dear! Then we had dinner at Cine Leisure Long John's& went walking at Heeren& Cine too. I met Zann after that at Clarke Quay. I miss him so, didn't get a message at all until he finished work. I know I'm stupid to be worry lahs, I still thought anything happen leh :( If I had tell him, he sure say working ... & I will be super-duper sad. That's all I know. Sighs~

Oh, thanks a million to Sayang Zoe for helping me change over a new Blog& my new e-mail address! [: Peeps, add me at babybeth_@hotmail.com. Thanks [: Aku Cinta Pada Mu, Sayang :D I had my naval piercing today, finally! It had always been my wish to do so. I met Yining Bestie at her house downstairs to collect my VCD. Then I went with her to Compass to meet ManSi afterwhich I went and took my Bus 43. I met Jaleena& Jiayi at Parkway there, then Jaleena left soon afterwards. So two-some me& Jiayi were left alone, we went to eat Bak-ku-Teh and I realised I missed it! Haha, the weather been rather cold lately. Hope everyone do take care& wear enough. Be sure not to kick your blankets down or you might catch a cold at night. & I miss Baby so :D I'm truly upset, but do you feel it?

Was supposed to meet BABY today :( I was so filled with disappointment. Sighs, are we going to carry on like this? Don't treat me like this. Hais. Frankly, I felt neglected- I know he's busy. We have not been meeting for about a week? I don't want us to be like this. I love you so. Maybe it's because of your work, but we are drifting more and more apart& my heart aches so much. Baby, I really wanted so so much to tell you I love you I'm so useless. I can't even do that, Aw!

I'm waiting for my NEW phone! [: Aggrhhs. When can I get it? Mummy then told me on Thursday, 21Dec then she will get down to M1's with me for Upgrading& purchasing of my dream phone! [:
Hope nothing goes wrong then xDD
I miss BABY! :(

Oh, I managed to see my Baby today! Okays, thanks my girlfriends for getting down to Vivo then! :D
I missed him so!, I accompanied him for a puff just today when he took a short break& he was transferred from Vivo to Marina Square or PlazaSing? Haha, I don't know. After such a long day, I fetch him at around 1015pm, we got back to Hougang's. He held my hand! We had not held hands like for ages, no-months! I missed his warmth. OH, Girlfriends& I went to Taka, Cine-area,CompassPoint, VivoCity& Hougang Mall today. I did not manage to have my naval pierce. Never mind, next time then. Poor Baby, he's sick :( I can't be there to take care of him. I'm sorry! I'm not a good girlfriend Dear! But I do love you truly, really.

Most of the pictures were taken at VivoCity today. Haha, some at Compass Point. We went to have lunch at Pizza Hut, went to UOB later! Just thinking about it makes me mad! Aline and I were rushing to the bank before it closes [: Thank God, just for that sum of $40! Wt~
I finally looked the same way as they did!


More Pictures :D

I was being abused on my way back with them to Hougang! & they did nothing to help me!