22April-, Sunday. I'm sorry. Baby was searching for me high and low, he was frantically worried,he was in a fluster. I saw many messages the moment I switched on my phone. I switched off my phone on that day, as my phone battery was almost dead. Thanks for your love, care and concern. Baby, I love you.

In my life, you are all that matters..

Pictures taken last week-

So after school, I went home straight and showered then hurried to meet my Darlings& Dearies, Peiying, Jasmine,& Girlfriends at Compass Point(: && not to forget my Adorable Baby Haha, wanted to study. The plan was at first- going to Serangoon Country Club- some of the girls wanted to bowl and study. I'm lazy to go so far, so the venue was changed to Janet house. I met Baby awhile at Compass Point, he was with Gordon that day. Well, then went Jent's house. Baobei Sally came too. Baby came and fetched me at Hougang. Beofre that, we had a tiff again. It was all a misunderstanding to start with then went his house. There, I was abused again. Look at those bruises and you will know Baby love to bite people.


I want us to last, forever.

Happy Three Months Anniversary! (:



Went meeting Baby at his house, at first both of us were like, where to go? After some consideration, we decided on the venue; his house. Made him bit unhappy because he wanted me to accompany him in the room while I wanted to watch TV in the living room. Went to find his busy Mum cooking in the kitchen, I told her it's our third months anniversary. Then Auntie was like asking 'What do you think of him?', 'Does he treat you good?' etc questions. Haha, I told her that he treat me good while I treated him shabbily. Baby really treats me good, that's why I'm never letting him go. Never! I love you, Baby.

Now at Bestie's house. She's baking some cake (; Haha. && Baby, I misses you badly! Five days since we never meet. Have you grow taller, slimmer? Baby, remember to eat okays. If not, your gastric pains may act up again. Baby, do you misses me the way I misses you? Remembered last night, I told you I suddenly wanted to hug you.. But absence makes the heart grow fonder. Baby, but will the absence makes us drift more and more apart? & will it lead to more pain and conflicts? Eight more days and it will be our third monthsary. I don't even know if I will have the time to accompany you on that day.. Because it's a Wednesday. & SSP is usually until five or five plus that day. Unless I won't attend. Really hope I can turn back the clock and not treat you the way I had treated you :( Thank you for everything you had done for me. Baby, I will always remember you..

Okays, things were like unpleasant today. Luckily, in the end things turned out fine (; Both of us shed tears. We shared the laughters& the joy together always. The madness between all of us, we hugged and laughed& cried together. Nothing can really break our bond. At least, we do realised we matters to each other after all. I was truly upset. But there wouldn't be hatred xD Because I love her just like the way she loved me.. Btw, Happy Birthday to Chengwai Dar& Joyce (; Hope Chengwai will last with his girlfriend& be happy xD

Last Night.

Okays, I'm now at Zann's house. I misses my Baobei& SISTERS, finally got to see them! I'm happy (; But there were unpleasant things too, happening all around us. How can these terrible feelings go away? I don't want my girls to run into these things. Please stay safe and sound. I FELT LIKE CRYING! &SCREAMING OUT LOUD! How can life be this unfair after all! I hate it. I hated vulgarities. I don't want everyone to suffer. Anyway, saw friends today, didn't meet Baby. Went AMK& Hougang, saw Liting. She went home first if not we would be sharing the same cab like we used to.. Sister, don't be upset (; Cheer up. I been trying so hard to change, I don't wanna give it up. You said you'd wait.

If you think I'm the one being bad, that's wrong. I treated you as a sister and you wanted me to be upset. & wanted me to have a taste of what you gone through. But I'm not at fault. How bad can you get? How can you betrayed them and do things to hurt? Hais..
Btw, Happy Birthday to Dearest Sister, Joanne Tan (; Girl, REALLY HOPE YOU WILL ALWAYS BE HAPPY& pretty. Please choose the right decision. [:

Even the slightest thing brought about the greatest pain. Does anyone knows how I feel now? Every night now and then, you made me drop tears. You made me wondr if it right for us to be like this. I'm not worthy of you.

Pictures of the day taken at AVA room;

Also on this day; If only I can show him my heart, let him see how it's bleeding profusely.. Show him my face that's full of tears. Baby, it's because you do matters that my heart wrenched so badly. For everything you said, it hurt me badly.